Journey to Self

The title of this blog post is also the domain name for my new website which is really happening. I have resisted having a powerful spiritual presence on the web because I have been trying to keep my light hidden under a bushel. I have been selling out on myself and what I can contribute to the world so that I can belong and not stand out. The cost to me of doing this is that I have not been authentic or true to myself.

In the past I used to stand by that old adage 'those who know don't speak, and those who speak don't know' but what I see now is that there comes a point where not to speak out for whatever reason doesn't feel or sit right with me. I stand by the presence of the powerful energy we all have at the base of our spine. This powerful energy that when it transmutes becomes spiritual and leads to spiritual awakening. Until a human being awakens this energy is only experienced as sexual but when it transmutes then a process of spiritual alchemy happens which awakens normally dormant areas of the brain. This has been my experience and as I am a human being, no different to anybody else out there, I hold this possibility out for everyone. If you have time go onto utube and type in kundalinispiritualawakening and look at a couple of the videos. There is one which is a vivid depiction of how this energy travels up the body and how it weaves its way around the spinal cord up to the brain. For me though there is still something missing in these videos in that it shows the energy causing the explosion of awareness in the brain which results in the loss of all boundaries and a sense of being ONE and EVERYTHING but in my case it came down to rest in my heart which is why I experience such compassion for the human condition.

It takes time to integrate this energy when it rises because those areas of the brain which are now activated must integrate, otherwise it can result in a psychosis of some description. Again I can verify this from my own experience. As a witness I experienced mania and then depression as the brain tried once again to find alignment. My stand as a witness of everything that was going on within me just watching without speaking to anyone about any of it meant that gradually integration happened, to the point that I can now write and speak about it as freely as I do.

It is from the rising of the energy and the increased activity in my brain that I have realised the three stages the consciousness goes through to spiritual awakening and enlightenment. The first stage - Know Yourself - this is the hardest and longest for human beings because of the depth of the forgetting and illusion that as human beings we are covered in. There is an intention that it will take something to realize the empty and meaningless nature of this stage of the spiritual path. The natural development of this stage is to construct your identity and then relate to that as who you are. This is why it takes intellectual effort to break out of the maya or distorted reality that the consciousness is in at this stage.

I am completing my last weekend of Kundalini yoga teacher training this weekend before I leave for an eight day yoga camping retreat to end the training and as I come to the end of it I am so grateful that everything I have heard during the past six months or so has all been in alignment with my experiences.